Now that the visit to SiChuan earthquake zone is over, it suddenly occurred to me that what a meaningful and amazing thing it is to have this trip to happen at the end of 2008 - a year full of surprises, unknowns, laughter, tears and prayers. Frankly I started to miss the villages, the field workers, the kids, my teammates ... and other brothers and sisters we met in the trip. I will share some of my thoughts and their stories when the many Gs videos and pics are finally compiled.
2008 is a very special year to me. From visiting fellowships in different church, to quitting my last job and finally returned to where I was raised, my emotions and expectations have been on a roller coaster ride. And this mission trip is another life changing experience - not that any 驚天動地 things happened, but after interacting with people living in an entirely different world, and seeing things that were unexpected (though I don't know what to expect at the beginning), I began to question am I doing what is worth 10-12 hours a day when I looked back my life investment couple yrs from now? What is God's plan for Chinese ppl? What invitations does God have for me?
My new year resolution? More sleep, more power! :=)
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
Wow, it has been a "while" ...
Mist or pollution?
What happened? It is almost 4+ months without writing anything in this super clean and unorganized blog!! For those who have been reading (any?) you probably know I finally stepped out of the big comfort secure safe care-free cash tanker and for a month or two I was in the sea of unemployment and financial turmoil. While trying to keep my head out of the water I finally got to experience what I'd been struggling all these yrs in Seattle and was afraid to experience.
What a journey indeed! It is a bit overwhelming actually. There are many "first in my lifetime" experiences during these couple months:
For the first time I quit from a job without any offers in line ...
For the first time I work in a commercial and financial company in HK!
Go to work at 830 in the morning!
Have to dress up ...
Joined BSF ... in HK!
Halloween party til 4am in the morning ...
God has been very good to me I have to admit. From landing a job in this economic situation to being able to join RM at the year end ... frankly I had doubts about the whole plan - I thought I had committed too much, I had been too idealistic and didn't have a good plan ... it is exactly like watching waves and storms inside a warm and safe house vs struggling to keep our heads above water when we are carrying by the waves. All the plans and ideas change when you jump into the water. And it is scary when there is nothing (by sight) you can hold on to. This experience reminds me of the time when I was in CA when I was out of work. I was in a much more difficult situation. But He pulled me out of the deep water and brought me to Seattle. That changed a whole lot of my life. Now a 2nd turning point happened to me - I went back to the place where I grew up and (to some extend) don't have good impressions of. Frankly I only have very limited visibility to my future. I don't know how long I am going to survive in this tough working environment, I don't know if I will go back to US again, I don't know if I am going to get married here, I don't know if I am going to China for whatever reasons ...
The most valuable thing I learn is: God is merciful and worthy of praise in good days and bad days. And one of the purpose of our lives is to know God and enjoy His presence.
By stepping out of the comfort zone in US, I actually learn to treasure lot more about little things in my life - the opportunity to look at a clear sky, to be able to secure a seat in the bus on my way to work, the time with family, the time with friends, the time to sleep (this is so precious)!!!!!!
Living in HK is like opening up a new window to an entirely different world where people live very differently from the rest of the world (or just US?). For example you can still find a lot of people hanging around in Causeway Bay at 2-3 am in the morning, nite time BBQ is not uncommon, eating with strangers in restaurants (but no conversations), lines everywhere ... and unique church phenomenons (too many stories to tell ...). Ah ... I am still on the lookout of a church that I can fit in. Can you imagine this is not a piece of cake - or I am just too idealistic and unrealistic?
Soho area during Halloween
I am going to miss the Christmas excitements in HK this yr. But I will be spending my Christmas in a very remote area where some children and adults don't get a chance to know the true meaning of Christmas and the significance of it. Worst of all they might not care because they are living on the edge - 衣食足然後知榮辱 。I really hope this is not true ... and hope that I won't get sick this time! Please pray for us ...
With 2009 around the corner, this is the best time to take a step back and answer a few questions that really matter (but were unanswered with so many daily "urgent" things get in the way). You know what they are. Oh, this is probably the last posting in 2008 - what a year!!
M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S AND A J O Y F U L N E W Y E A R !
What happened? It is almost 4+ months without writing anything in this super clean and unorganized blog!! For those who have been reading (any?) you probably know I finally stepped out of the big comfort secure safe care-free cash tanker and for a month or two I was in the sea of unemployment and financial turmoil. While trying to keep my head out of the water I finally got to experience what I'd been struggling all these yrs in Seattle and was afraid to experience.
What a journey indeed! It is a bit overwhelming actually. There are many "first in my lifetime" experiences during these couple months:
For the first time I quit from a job without any offers in line ...
For the first time I work in a commercial and financial company in HK!
Go to work at 830 in the morning!
Have to dress up ...
Joined BSF ... in HK!
Halloween party til 4am in the morning ...
God has been very good to me I have to admit. From landing a job in this economic situation to being able to join RM at the year end ... frankly I had doubts about the whole plan - I thought I had committed too much, I had been too idealistic and didn't have a good plan ... it is exactly like watching waves and storms inside a warm and safe house vs struggling to keep our heads above water when we are carrying by the waves. All the plans and ideas change when you jump into the water. And it is scary when there is nothing (by sight) you can hold on to. This experience reminds me of the time when I was in CA when I was out of work. I was in a much more difficult situation. But He pulled me out of the deep water and brought me to Seattle. That changed a whole lot of my life. Now a 2nd turning point happened to me - I went back to the place where I grew up and (to some extend) don't have good impressions of. Frankly I only have very limited visibility to my future. I don't know how long I am going to survive in this tough working environment, I don't know if I will go back to US again, I don't know if I am going to get married here, I don't know if I am going to China for whatever reasons ...
The most valuable thing I learn is: God is merciful and worthy of praise in good days and bad days. And one of the purpose of our lives is to know God and enjoy His presence.By stepping out of the comfort zone in US, I actually learn to treasure lot more about little things in my life - the opportunity to look at a clear sky, to be able to secure a seat in the bus on my way to work, the time with family, the time with friends, the time to sleep (this is so precious)!!!!!!
Living in HK is like opening up a new window to an entirely different world where people live very differently from the rest of the world (or just US?). For example you can still find a lot of people hanging around in Causeway Bay at 2-3 am in the morning, nite time BBQ is not uncommon, eating with strangers in restaurants (but no conversations), lines everywhere ... and unique church phenomenons (too many stories to tell ...). Ah ... I am still on the lookout of a church that I can fit in. Can you imagine this is not a piece of cake - or I am just too idealistic and unrealistic?
Soho area during HalloweenI am going to miss the Christmas excitements in HK this yr. But I will be spending my Christmas in a very remote area where some children and adults don't get a chance to know the true meaning of Christmas and the significance of it. Worst of all they might not care because they are living on the edge - 衣食足然後知榮辱 。I really hope this is not true ... and hope that I won't get sick this time! Please pray for us ...
With 2009 around the corner, this is the best time to take a step back and answer a few questions that really matter (but were unanswered with so many daily "urgent" things get in the way). You know what they are. Oh, this is probably the last posting in 2008 - what a year!!
M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S AND A J O Y F U L N E W Y E A R !
Monday, September 8, 2008
Finally
After all these years in US, finally it all comes to an end. Upon an email to decline the SZ offer and an official last day in MS, I am practically out of this big and famous ship - and in a wild roaring sea.
This is a big relief - after going through all the struggles and so many emotional battles, finally future is more certain ... about its nature of uncertainty. Now I am very certain about my next few months - that I will be faced with more uncertainties. I don't remember if I'd done something like this before. I have been making decisions in a very careful and safe way from this world's perspective. I don't know if this is a wise decision but I know life is more than a job and a comfortable environment. God has been faithful and merciful to me during all these years when I am away from my family, living in a foreign country, speaking with heavy accent, getting along with chinese from all around the world. I believe His faithfulness doesn't change. And hopefully this is going to be a new faith story. Less of me, more of God. Seek His kingdom first and let His will be done instead of my personal agenda be observed.
With this mindset, I hope to see a bigger sky that I'd never seen. I hope to see a bigger God, a more powerful grace/love/peace giver that I'd never experienced. And hopefully I will be empowered to do the right thing, love mercy, and walk humbly with God. To mean what I say and say what I mean. To really walk my talk, and be a man of integrity!
This is a big relief - after going through all the struggles and so many emotional battles, finally future is more certain ... about its nature of uncertainty. Now I am very certain about my next few months - that I will be faced with more uncertainties. I don't remember if I'd done something like this before. I have been making decisions in a very careful and safe way from this world's perspective. I don't know if this is a wise decision but I know life is more than a job and a comfortable environment. God has been faithful and merciful to me during all these years when I am away from my family, living in a foreign country, speaking with heavy accent, getting along with chinese from all around the world. I believe His faithfulness doesn't change. And hopefully this is going to be a new faith story. Less of me, more of God. Seek His kingdom first and let His will be done instead of my personal agenda be observed.
With this mindset, I hope to see a bigger sky that I'd never seen. I hope to see a bigger God, a more powerful grace/love/peace giver that I'd never experienced. And hopefully I will be empowered to do the right thing, love mercy, and walk humbly with God. To mean what I say and say what I mean. To really walk my talk, and be a man of integrity!
Sunday, June 22, 2008
The waiting room of life
God spoke out loud in today's sermon! A brief summary:
"Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10-11
Waiting is an act of obedience. God is at work when we are waiting.
The waiting room of life is the place where faith is born, obedience is grown and life is perfected.
Whether we are waiting for a career breakthrough, for a relationship to come along, for spiritual revival, what God concerns is more about what kind of people when we get there. We are going to get a job, a promotion, to meet someone etc. but who we are when we get there?
Keep listening and move forward.
And yes, we have a lifetime to wait!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
當年今日 - 西歐游
12 years already!!! Thank you Eddy for reminding us ... I still remember how expensive McDonald is in Swiss. And all the instant noodles that 恩公 gave us (Frankly instant noodles are still a major part of my diet as of today :=P) and I got back my passport and wallet from a korean after leaving them in the tiolet on the "bullet train" in France (and we were playing Uno ...) !!! Still remember biking in Swiss?Yeah ... "in my heart ... in my heart ... x N times ... "
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Praise the Lord
There are still survivors even after more than a week!! He is indeed our refuge and salvation, pray that there will be more miracles and these lives need not enter the eternal darkness, He is the one who heals and gives lives, He is able, He is faithful!
耶 和 華 阿 、 我 聽 見 你 的 名 聲 、 就 懼 怕 。 耶 和 華 阿 、 求 你 在 這 些 年 間 復 興 你 的 作 為 、 在 這 些 年 間 顯 明 出 來 、 在 發 怒 的 時 候 、 以 憐 憫 為 念 。
耶 和 華 阿 、 我 聽 見 你 的 名 聲 、 就 懼 怕 。 耶 和 華 阿 、 求 你 在 這 些 年 間 復 興 你 的 作 為 、 在 這 些 年 間 顯 明 出 來 、 在 發 怒 的 時 候 、 以 憐 憫 為 念 。
Saturday, May 17, 2008
This makes me cry ...
"A nurse holding a general's written order begs soldiers to rescue surviving children still buried in the ruins of another nearby school in the old city district near a mountain at the earthquake-hit Beichuan county, Sichuan province, May 15, 2008. The soldiers are not under the command of the general, whose written order reads: 'Please arrange for rescue operations at this school as quickly as possible.' (Jason Lee/Reuters)"
Lord do something ...
"Li XX, 10, screams after her left leg was amputated to rescue her from the ruins of a collapsed building at Miaoba primary school in earthquake-hit Beichuan county, about 99 miles northeast of the epicenter at Wenchuan county, Sichuan Province, May 15, 2008"
Lord, please have mercy on this place, show your kindness and grace and miracles, you are the God who creates and destroys, you gives and takes ... you are the one in control and only you can heal and give them life - only your cross, the power of your cross can ease their pains. Many of them have never heard of you and when they died many of them go to hell. Be with them, and even in this times of great troubles and difficulties, when their hearts cry out to you, have mercy on them ...
"A mother cries as she covers the body of her son who was killed when his school collapsed in the earthquake-hit township of Hanwang, in Mianzhu city north of Chengdu, Sichuan Province May 16, 2008"
"Most of the students killed when Wufu's school collapsed were only children, ..."
All the tears, all the broken hearts, all the unbearable pains ...
"神 要 擦 去 他 們 一 切 的 眼 淚 ． 不 再 有 死 亡 、 也 不 再 有 悲 哀 、 哭 號 、 疼 痛 、 因 為 以 前 的 事 都 過 去 了 。" (Revelation 21:4)
Lord, please have mercy on this place, show your kindness and grace and miracles, you are the God who creates and destroys, you gives and takes ... you are the one in control and only you can heal and give them life - only your cross, the power of your cross can ease their pains. Many of them have never heard of you and when they died many of them go to hell. Be with them, and even in this times of great troubles and difficulties, when their hearts cry out to you, have mercy on them ...
"A mother cries as she covers the body of her son who was killed when his school collapsed in the earthquake-hit township of Hanwang, in Mianzhu city north of Chengdu, Sichuan Province May 16, 2008"
"Most of the students killed when Wufu's school collapsed were only children, ..."
All the tears, all the broken hearts, all the unbearable pains ...
"神 要 擦 去 他 們 一 切 的 眼 淚 ． 不 再 有 死 亡 、 也 不 再 有 悲 哀 、 哭 號 、 疼 痛 、 因 為 以 前 的 事 都 過 去 了 。" (Revelation 21:4)
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Love comes softly
I would probably never stay watching this episode in the Hallmark channel if we still have the basic comcast plan (instead of what we have now - the limited basic - so we only have a few channels to worry about). It isn't a very "hollywood" movie but it is simple and meaningful and some of the lines are quite inspiring ... like some plain chicken soup without MSG.
I only watched second half of the movie and didn't know the whole story ... but there is a woman Marty who somehow got pregnant and (lost her wagon?) then stayed with a man she doesn't quite know (hmm ... sounds like I am making up the story). But anyhow she developed a good relationship with the man's daughter, despite the fact that she was raised up in city and that girl spent her whole life in a remote farm. The setting is somewhere in the Rocky mountain where you can imagine horses and cows are everywhere, basic living conditions and very very few people around.
It is all about the change of Marty's perspective of life, love and faith. She questioned about her own fate, she doubt God's faithfulness, she was annoyed by bad things that keep happening to her life and also to those people she is connected to. Many questions unanswered. One day when that man (clark?)'s barn got burnt and he lost his horses, cows etc., Marty was brought to the point that she doesn't believe in prayers (when Clark told her that everything would be fine as God always answered prayers) - then Clark brought her to Church - which is actually an open area with a breathtaking view of mountains and rivers. then ...
"the truth of God's love is not about not allowing bad things to happen, it is about the promise that He will be there when they do"
Well Marty has to go back to where she belongs, at least she thought. So she left a note (a hint) in Clark's bible and was expecting he would do something to keep her from leaving. As much as life is complicated by random instances, the note dropped on the floor from the bible ... so he sent her away to the town where Marty would take a wagon back home ...
"A woman has to be crazy to stay in this place, or, in love" - inside the wagon an woman rationalize her decision to leave. "Horrible storm ..."
Then as you might expect a man is after the woman he loves, so Clark ride his horse to catch up Marty after he finally picked up the note from under his bed - right after he knee down and prayed to God to accept that fact that He gave and He had taken away...
"There has to be a reason for me to stay" said Marty. "because I love you" said Clark. "The reason for me to stay is because I love you" said Marty.
"Sometimes love is like fireworks, but oftentimes love comes softly" ... an old lady ... don't know her relationship with Marty though.
If you are tired of watching those action intensive channels (like FX ?), this is a good one to go for.
I only watched second half of the movie and didn't know the whole story ... but there is a woman Marty who somehow got pregnant and (lost her wagon?) then stayed with a man she doesn't quite know (hmm ... sounds like I am making up the story). But anyhow she developed a good relationship with the man's daughter, despite the fact that she was raised up in city and that girl spent her whole life in a remote farm. The setting is somewhere in the Rocky mountain where you can imagine horses and cows are everywhere, basic living conditions and very very few people around.
It is all about the change of Marty's perspective of life, love and faith. She questioned about her own fate, she doubt God's faithfulness, she was annoyed by bad things that keep happening to her life and also to those people she is connected to. Many questions unanswered. One day when that man (clark?)'s barn got burnt and he lost his horses, cows etc., Marty was brought to the point that she doesn't believe in prayers (when Clark told her that everything would be fine as God always answered prayers) - then Clark brought her to Church - which is actually an open area with a breathtaking view of mountains and rivers. then ...
"the truth of God's love is not about not allowing bad things to happen, it is about the promise that He will be there when they do"
Well Marty has to go back to where she belongs, at least she thought. So she left a note (a hint) in Clark's bible and was expecting he would do something to keep her from leaving. As much as life is complicated by random instances, the note dropped on the floor from the bible ... so he sent her away to the town where Marty would take a wagon back home ...
"A woman has to be crazy to stay in this place, or, in love" - inside the wagon an woman rationalize her decision to leave. "Horrible storm ..."
Then as you might expect a man is after the woman he loves, so Clark ride his horse to catch up Marty after he finally picked up the note from under his bed - right after he knee down and prayed to God to accept that fact that He gave and He had taken away...
"There has to be a reason for me to stay" said Marty. "because I love you" said Clark. "The reason for me to stay is because I love you" said Marty.
"Sometimes love is like fireworks, but oftentimes love comes softly" ... an old lady ... don't know her relationship with Marty though.
If you are tired of watching those action intensive channels (like FX ?), this is a good one to go for.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Sleep
Hard to describe how it feels to have gone to bed before 2am first time ever since last week. Crazy schedule, tax, IVs, tests ... serious shortage of sleep really slows down my responses to the outside world - email, phone, IM, news ... But glad that finally there is a break (but next week ... who knows) and I can sleeeeeeeeep lor!!!
I love my bed, my dreams, and the time that I don't need to stare at the mon.
And thank God, all the brothers/sisters that prayed for me, and ppl who have been putting up with my slow responses :=)
Oh, it's raining again ... 100% natural background music for a good sleep.
I love my bed, my dreams, and the time that I don't need to stare at the mon.
And thank God, all the brothers/sisters that prayed for me, and ppl who have been putting up with my slow responses :=)
Oh, it's raining again ... 100% natural background music for a good sleep.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
夏雪
晚上,下雪了。片片的雪花,灑落在微黃的燈光下 , 像不斷隨落的星空 ,很美麗,很祥和。關了燈,看箸白色的屋頂,枯枝上結滿的雪花,感覺像在童話世界中。聽箸"永遠尊貴" - 我獻上感謝 ... 沒有想到在三月底的黑夜中,可以在下雪的晚上敬拜他… 完全的降服 ,完全的藏身在生命的源頭… 突然覺得永恆很接近...
盼望這一刻不會完結…
"充滿我,潔淨我 ,在你寶座前有生命水湧流 ,更新醫治我"
盼望這一刻不會完結…
"充滿我,潔淨我 ,在你寶座前有生命水湧流 ,更新醫治我"
Monday, March 10, 2008
燈影,遠去了…
自從"華人之光" ( 一種在這 裡非常流行的企燈)不再照亮後, 房間裡就只剩下衣廚裡的白光燈… 每次晚上工作時, 都好像回到七十年代粵語長片中,白燕與張抹柔在板間房中車衣 ( 男的通常在爬格子 ,然後咳 到噴血… )的情節… 老土的橋段,卻是活生生的寫照...我現在還不是在幽暗的光線下 “趕貨" 嗎?
每次習慣性地推動企燈的開關, 然後發現還是一片柒黑的感覺, 就好像在提醒自己 - it won't last forever ...
燈光有明滅,故事也有轉折。下一章,不知如何開始…
每次習慣性地推動企燈的開關, 然後發現還是一片柒黑的感覺, 就好像在提醒自己 - it won't last forever ...
燈光有明滅,故事也有轉折。下一章,不知如何開始…
Monday, March 3, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
海外校園 - 第八十七期 -背叛
“…我就像 一個快要窒息的人, 活在狹小封閉的空間裡。世界原本廣闊, 我卻無法觸摸。" -小雪
一篇非常流 暢的文章 。 從文字而來 的震撼,久久揮之不去 。 在中國這遼闊的國度裡 ,還有多少 這讓的故事 ?還有多少無奈的情節,悲慘的結局? 作者很蒙恩 最後離開了那個謊繆 的牢籠, 但我想實在還有很多類似的故事, 在每天上演箸, 誰為他們編寫美好的結局?
" ... 上帝也在尋找、拯救這些人…" -小雪
一篇非常流 暢的文章 。 從文字而來 的震撼,久久揮之不去 。 在中國這遼闊的國度裡 ,還有多少 這讓的故事 ?還有多少無奈的情節,悲慘的結局? 作者很蒙恩 最後離開了那個謊繆 的牢籠, 但我想實在還有很多類似的故事, 在每天上演箸, 誰為他們編寫美好的結局?
" ... 上帝也在尋找、拯救這些人…" -小雪
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Touchpad ...
I have to say I really hate this touchpad ... from Dell inspiron ... it is as insensitive as a piece of "bull skin"
Will never go for Dell again ... never ....
Will never go for Dell again ... never ....
Monday, February 4, 2008
奇妙的雙手
Can you imagine how hard it is to put together slides, sound track and video clips together in MS Movie Maker? The hardest part is to time the slides and when the slides and clips are done the sound track could be completely off ...
That is exactly what happened when I put together RM slides and clips ... I totally forgot to time the song (" 若你能看見") ... so chances are either the lyrics or the music wouldn't fit the slides/messages ...
But 我不能,神能. The song fits very well to the flow of the whole promotional slides +
videos ... the chorus fits so well to the slides down to 2-3 seconds. And the lyrics matches exactly right with the pictures (I did not intend to have this "effect"). There is one slide with two hands and this is exactly when the song comes to " 連自己雙手亦無從一見" ... I can't believe if this is not our Father's work ...
videos ... the chorus fits so well to the slides down to 2-3 seconds. And the lyrics matches exactly right with the pictures (I did not intend to have this "effect"). There is one slide with two hands and this is exactly when the song comes to " 連自己雙手亦無從一見" ... I can't believe if this is not our Father's work ... Well poeple can still argue this is by chance ... but keep in mind all the slides and videos are in sequence and if one is off by couple seconds (on average every slide is about 5.5 sec) then the rest down the stream will be off ...
Monday, January 28, 2008
溫馨提示 - 重慶發現
終於有點時間 可以從記憶的倉庫中 , 記下這一 部份的回憶, 希望 日後回看時,會多一 點印象...
第一印象
灰色城市: 從天色到汽車 的顏色 ,都是灰暗和佈滿灰塵 , 憂悶 的情況絕對比西雅圖更甚... 唯一 不 同的是這裡 is full of people, almost everywhere you can see a lot of them. 若不是我看錯的話 , 花草樹木, 大廈天橋, 也有一點灰 ...
方言: 重慶話有點象普通話 跟廣東話結合,能聽懂一點點 。 發現他們不太喜歡說普通話 ... 正如我們一樣 ,在可以選擇的情況下 ,是會說廣東話的.
自由萬歲: 或許和 中國的 其他地方 一樣 在這裡行人和開車的都很自由 。坐在來接我們到酒店 的小型客貨 車上的 前座 ,很經 歷到“平安, 唯獨主可賞賜 "的意義 。因為有交通封鎖 的情況 ,司 機需 要即 時問 路, 查詢 ,所 以就在繁忙的街道上隨時停下來 ,在單程路上/ 班馬線的路上/ 回旋 處 自由U turn 。在往後 的日子裡 ,才發現所有的交 通工具大致都是這樣… 行人ma, 也很瀟灑, 班馬 線和 紅綠 燈是 很好 的參 考、 但最 後還 是看 個人 的膽 色和 經驗 ... 在車水馬龍的行車 路上 ”自由行", 是一 大奇觀。
高度文明
現代 的中 國已是高度發 展, 很多設 備 和服 務, 已“ 起英 趕美 ", 過猶 不及... 例如 酒店 內房間的 card key, 採用 了感 應式 開關系統 ,我和室 友花 了很 久的 時間 才在 一非 常特 定的 spot 上找 到感 應… 還有 每天 轉換 一 次的 門鎖 開關 ,意 味我們需 要到櫃檯“掃卡" ,當 然過程中友善的服 務員 是不會過問我們是否住在那 房間...
房間內有標準的配 套, 還有些不很 standard 的供 應…RM CQ member 一定 知道 ,但在這裡還 是稍 為略 過 。值 得一 提的 是房 間內 的中央“ 宏調 "非 常先 進, 例如把 燈光調 亮一點 是需要 在開關 上多按 幾次… 我和室友都覺得這樣的設計非常 "user friendly" ...
花灑 不能 轉動 ,略帶 灰色的 浴巾, 每天半 卷廁紙 供應, 有點mock落 的天花 ... 都是其 中的一 些特色 。 但能在 有暖氣 的房間 住宿, 已經是 超出我 的預計了…
奇人奇事
公車: 沒有八 達通, 也沒有 收錢箱 ,收車 費的重 任落在 一個收 費員身 上。一 般來說 要在公 車上站 穩巳不 是易事 ,但這 位收費 員要在 行走 中的更 廂內來 回走動 ,收錢 ,找錢 ,記下 那一 位乘 客已 付過 或未 付車 費, 還得 在靠 站時 大聲 喊叫 到底是 那一 站... 我心 裡很 佩服 他們 ,雖然 看似很 低微 的職 業, 但他 們的 技能 可以 勝任 很多 其他 的工 作 。
的士 :除了安全帶 的名字外, 乘坐 的士 是絕對跟 安全沒有什麼 關 連。 當然 ,連司機 也沒有系安 全帶 ,而我 也發現 大部份 前座乘 客的安全帶是發黃或偶然卡住的 。司機的 駕駛 方法 和小孩子 玩電玩賽車一 樣, 只要 是能 超車的, 一定 超, 不能過的 也一樣會過。 即使是在單線 行車, 或 當對面 行車 繁忙 的情況 下, 也一 樣可以超 車。 值得一提 的是 司機 是 multitasking
的高 手,除 了一面 吸煙 ,用 手提 電話 外, 還可以 同時用GPS, 打燈 ,手排轉波, 切線, 晌 horn ... 在旁和在後的我們, 只好暗中禱告 ,迫切祈求...
第一印象
灰色城市: 從天色到汽車 的顏色 ,都是灰暗和佈滿灰塵 , 憂悶 的情況絕對比西雅圖更甚... 唯一 不 同的是這裡 is full of people, almost everywhere you can see a lot of them. 若不是我看錯的話 , 花草樹木, 大廈天橋, 也有一點灰 ...
方言: 重慶話有點象普通話 跟廣東話結合,能聽懂一點點 。 發現他們不太喜歡說普通話 ... 正如我們一樣 ,在可以選擇的情況下 ,是會說廣東話的.
自由萬歲: 或許和 中國的 其他地方 一樣 在這裡行人和開車的都很自由 。坐在來接我們到酒店 的小型客貨 車上的 前座 ,很經 歷到“平安, 唯獨主可賞賜 "的意義 。因為有交通封鎖 的情況 ,司 機需 要即 時問 路, 查詢 ,所 以就在繁忙的街道上隨時停下來 ,在單程路上/ 班馬線的路上/ 回旋 處 自由U turn 。在往後 的日子裡 ,才發現所有的交 通工具大致都是這樣… 行人ma, 也很瀟灑, 班馬 線和 紅綠 燈是 很好 的參 考、 但最 後還 是看 個人 的膽 色和 經驗 ... 在車水馬龍的行車 路上 ”自由行", 是一 大奇觀。
高度文明
現代 的中 國已是高度發 展, 很多設 備 和服 務, 已“ 起英 趕美 ", 過猶 不及... 例如 酒店 內房間的 card key, 採用 了感 應式 開關系統 ,我和室 友花 了很 久的 時間 才在 一非 常特 定的 spot 上找 到感 應… 還有 每天 轉換 一 次的 門鎖 開關 ,意 味我們需 要到櫃檯“掃卡" ,當 然過程中友善的服 務員 是不會過問我們是否住在那 房間...
房間內有標準的配 套, 還有些不很 standard 的供 應…RM CQ member 一定 知道 ,但在這裡還 是稍 為略 過 。值 得一 提的 是房 間內 的中央“ 宏調 "非 常先 進, 例如把 燈光調 亮一點 是需要 在開關 上多按 幾次… 我和室友都覺得這樣的設計非常 "user friendly" ...
花灑 不能 轉動 ,略帶 灰色的 浴巾, 每天半 卷廁紙 供應, 有點mock落 的天花 ... 都是其 中的一 些特色 。 但能在 有暖氣 的房間 住宿, 已經是 超出我 的預計了…
奇人奇事
公車: 沒有八 達通, 也沒有 收錢箱 ,收車 費的重 任落在 一個收 費員身 上。一 般來說 要在公 車上站 穩巳不 是易事 ,但這 位收費 員要在 行走 中的更 廂內來 回走動 ,收錢 ,找錢 ,記下 那一 位乘 客已 付過 或未 付車 費, 還得 在靠 站時 大聲 喊叫 到底是 那一 站... 我心 裡很 佩服 他們 ,雖然 看似很 低微 的職 業, 但他 們的 技能 可以 勝任 很多 其他 的工 作 。
的士 :除了安全帶 的名字外, 乘坐 的士 是絕對跟 安全沒有什麼 關 連。 當然 ,連司機 也沒有系安 全帶 ,而我 也發現 大部份 前座乘 客的安全帶是發黃或偶然卡住的 。司機的 駕駛 方法 和小孩子 玩電玩賽車一 樣, 只要 是能 超車的, 一定 超, 不能過的 也一樣會過。 即使是在單線 行車, 或 當對面 行車 繁忙 的情況 下, 也一 樣可以超 車。 值得一提 的是 司機 是 multitasking
的高 手,除 了一面 吸煙 ,用 手提 電話 外, 還可以 同時用GPS, 打燈 ,手排轉波, 切線, 晌 horn ... 在旁和在後的我們, 只好暗中禱告 ,迫切祈求...
吾愛之,吾食之: 重慶到處都是寵物店,賣狗的店非常多。 到處都可看到可愛 ,特別品種 的小狗在“逛街 " 。最奇的是吃狗肉的地方也 非常多 ,從 火鍋 到小菜 ,各大地鋪 ,食市 ,都可以找到。到底他們會否帶寵物狗到餐廳食狗肉? "男人食了身体健 康,女人食了青春常駐 " - 死未 …
一切重心開始 - 重慶日誌
兩個星期的時間, 很快便溜走了, 回想 ...到底在這城市留下了甚麼, 又帶走了些甚麼? 人與人的相遇, 可以很淡泊單調, 也可以很瑰麗精彩, 這兩週相遇的痕跡, 到底又有怎麼意義 ? 12 月18 日 - 陰
天氣很涼, 雖然盲校座落在高樓 之中,但 氣溫 還是那樣低。像這裡的天色 一樣, 這個城市總給人一種愁眉不展的感覺。今天是 第一天在這裡授課,心情有點緊張…社會科, 到底跟我們希望小朋友知道的九種屬靈果子有什麼關係?但第一個跟學生碰面的機會是彩虹茶市(Rainbow Cafe)。三十多位全盲或半盲的學生就在我們面前。正 如一 般小朋友一 樣, 他們也很愛說話, 表達(嘗試) 自己 ,爭取 attention, 也有一些 非常安靜 ,怕羞,很不起眼 …我們 問了一些問題, 說了一些故事,對他們多了一些認 識。 最令人驚 呀的是一些問 題的 答案,例 如“ 說謊可不可 以", 有一 些同 學認為只要有技巧就可以了…“ 狠來了的故事是教訓我們 大話只可說兩遍"... 做老師的我們一下子也反應不過來...................
在忙亂之 際,其中 一位老師誤把下午社會課的資料用上了, 那下午我們教什麼?
在午飯前後草草商量了一會,正在想可否試一下 role play一個故事時, 上課的鐘聲已經響起了… 在
完全沒有 rehersal 的情況下(當天原來有電視台的工作人員在拍攝) , 一切都比預期好,而且原來準 備了的故事眼本不夠內容構授 40 分鐘的課 , 這才發現" 主已為你我預備",並且他預備的比我們的要好太多了 …
完全沒有 rehersal 的情況下(當天原來有電視台的工作人員在拍攝) , 一切都比預期好,而且原來準 備了的故事眼本不夠內容構授 40 分鐘的課 , 這才發現" 主已為你我預備",並且他預備的比我們的要好太多了 … 
晚上吃了全餃宴 ,特色是非 常 salty, 餃子湯變成了沖淡餃子之用 。 回到 步行街,五光十色, 燈 火璀燦, 和盲校的灰暗, 成了很大對比...論盡事件: 香港身份証 不再有效了... ( and I haven't applied for the smart version of it)
社會科同學的問題: 美國的國花是什麼 ? 三位彩虹老師相對無言…
12 月19 日 - 陰
沒有社會課, 今天正好備課 。 以為已經 準備好的教材,原來只可以撐半堂 , 還有三 至四節 的 RainBow Cafe ( 每節 四十分 鐘) ... 點算?
學生跟老 師們都要做早操 ,是什麼律運動第八套。感覺像在打六通 拳。有幾式真的跟不上,糊 亂搖動手腳身 軀實在 難堪得很。運動後有經驗 的彩虹老師都會主動找學生們傾談 ,但當時的我 ,實在有點不知所措 ,在云云學生中,也不知道 要找誰 。最後還是躲回會議 室備課 去。 窗外, 只 見一老 師們總 是被一 大 group 小朋友們圍著 , 他們好像認識了很久似的…到底如何跟他們相熟呢?
原來要當綜藝節目的主持 / 創作, 是不容易的 。 三個人想了很久,還是未能把彩虹茶市的所有活動 ,內容想出來。 最後終於想 了幾 個遊戲 ,算 是不錯 ,但 道具方面 …原來主已一早預備 :同行的 J and D 姊妺 /弟兄 ,帶來了很多英文課的教材 ,很多都可大派用場, 真的要感謝 主! 從未 想到可 以如 此即興 。
忘記 了晚上 到底 吃了什 麼… 可能是 “鄉 村基"- 中國西式快餐店 。份量比較 少,但起馬可以選擇不辣的食物。
12 月 20 日 - 陰
今天 有社會科,應該是我教 … 經過 前幾天 的經 驗,特 別準 備了多幾個故事, 以備不時之需… 今天 
教的是 六年級,跟 四年級不同 ,所以可沿用“ 國王" 作畫劇題材。心想 應該沒有“ 空餘時間"了吧… 誰知畫劇很快就演完 ( 六年 級生, 果然效率很高 ) ,再慢慢地把“ 婦人" 的故事講解了一 遍,發現還有十幾分鐘 !! 把後備故事講完以後, 真的要投降了, 還有五分鐘 !! 當然 ,學校 社會課的老師, 總有辦法善用餘下來的時間…
馬來西亞的特產是榴蓮 , 重慶的特產是麻辣火鍋… 西雅圖的特產是 …?
早操後,我也賞試在操場找一些學生傾談, 結果認識了同學“星" 。星仔的父 母親是做按摩的 (如沒 記錯 ,也是 失明 人士) ,所 以也希 望兒子也繼續“ 按"下 去。 星仔卻喜歡電腦, 希望能從事電腦 行業, 還問 了我很 多關 於電腦保安的問題 …其實從各 方面 看,他 都是 一個跟視力正常的孩子 沒有太 大分別,但在現今的技 盲人軟件的技術基礎上 ,似 乎能提 供的 創作和就業空間不太多 ,尤其 在中 國。他們做按摩的收入可能更好。 這讓我開始 想到 ,除了給予關懷和鼓勵 外,我們還可以帶給他們什麼切身的幫助 ?
在上課鐘聲響起 前,我們還談了些 家庭 ,學校裡的一些事兒… 不知道 是他們的成長環境不同還是 他們喜歡隱惡揚善 ,總覺得他們比香港, 美國的同齡孩子要成熟 …或 許我還 未真正認識他們 ?
12 月 21日 - 陰
今天 沒有課 。聽 說去年 每天 都有社 會課( 讓彩 虹老師 教 ) ,不知 怎麼 原因今年被減掉了一半 ? L 弟兄 可能比 較清楚箇中原由。
跟隨 L弟兄到電腦課"考察考察", 對學生們又有了新的認識 。電腦室內 ,是 通向盲校 以外世界的一 個小天地。 在這裡通過互聯網,學生們可以聽 到新聞,故事,笑話,電影 …還可以打遊戲(是的,盲人也可以!) ,聽說這是他們最享受的課堂。 有一 些半盲的學生還會帶私家碟在老師 不在意 的時候現場播放 …有時老師也會幫忙一下…
下午空閒的時間很多 ,不 經意的 到班 房逛逛 。很偶然的碰到莎莎老 師, 而她正需要幫忙 …因 為她同 時要 看兩班 學生 , 實在有點分身乏術… 而我正好在 課室門外經過。 莎莎老 師是這學期 的實 習老師 ,學 生們都 很喜歡她, 希望 她畢業 很能留在盲校, 她對我們的工作好像很 感興趣 ,經 常到會 議室 找我們 聊天 ,還幫 我們辦認學生, 提供座 位表 等… 她最感興趣 的是手語, 也教 了我們 一些簡單的 ,好像謝謝 ,愛 ,感恩等。 正如學生時 代的 我們, 考試 ,作業 老是 我們的夢壓 ,莎 莎也正 面對她的英 文考 試…順 帶一 題,她 是盲校的語 文老 師,中 文水 平要高 出我 們很多了!
終於有機會與學生們有 機會多聊一下。 老實, 當時是有點 overwhelming, 有點想逃離現場的感覺 。他們都很 熱情 ,有很 多很多的問 題。 由於 視力有 障礙 ,他 們一般 都會倚重聽覺和觸覺。有一 些同學 會緊 緊抓住 你的手,或 衣服 等。第 一次 真的很 不習慣, 尤其 是他們 大都有點味 道, 手掌有 的是 冰冷 的, 有的是粘粘 的。 握箸他們的 手, 有點能真實体會他們的生活, 他們的世界。在低於十 度的 天氣底 下, 他們很 多只 穿二、 三件 不算太 厚的衣服, 鼻子上總是 掛箸 兩行鼻涕。他們的 手, 是用來 探索 障礙物 ,打 招乎, 玩手 球…可 以說 什麼地 方也會觸摸 到( 有點駭 人的是,就 連老 師從 洗手 間出來 後也 不洗手 ,很 難想像 孩 子們會 有洗 手的習 慣)。 觸碰 到他們 的手 ,就好 像進 入到一 個不 是用眼 睛, 而是用感應 的世界一樣 。他們情感 的流露 ,也 能籍箸指掌間活動 的緩急 輕重 ,傳遞出去 。 激動 時,會把你 的手緊 緊的握住, 愉快時,會把你的手搖來搖 去… 這幾 十分鐘 的時間,認 識了他們很 多。 同學 L口 齒伶俐 ,志願學好英文 ,將來 當翻譯。 她的人生觀 很積 極,正 面; 臉上常 掛箸 笑容, 雖然 她是完 全看 不見, 但卻 給其同學帶來鼓 舞。 記得 當中有幾位 不是生 來就 瞎眼的 , 但因為 急性青光眼 ,卻從正常 的學校,被 安排 到盲人學校 來(諷 刺的 是只一 牆之 隔,全 市重 點小學 ,就 在旁邊 ,裏 面都是 優質教育, 資優學生 ) 。
現在 已失 去視力 的他們, 除了 放棄以 前的夢想外 ,還得“學 習 面對現 實 " - L 。 在以 前小學四 年級 的我, 是絕 對想不 出這 樣的說 話。 真的 ,他們 用說話表達 的能 力,要 比我 們好很 多。 就像李 同學 ,她是 學生會的( 槽, 忘了! )幹事之一 ,出 口成文 ,在 彩虹 茶市裡 畫劇 的演出 就可 見一斑。其 實他們 都很有才華, 琴、 棋、書、 畫,他們都很 出色。不要以 為他們看不見 就不能下 棋;聽說他們 能在“意念" 上下棋(有點 “英雄" feel) 。有一位女同 學在音樂課時 彈了一首曲子 ,如果不是看箸她,我是不 能相信她是看不見的(真的是“無譜"架) 。
快要到晚飯的 時候跟學生們 打藍球。以為 他們是半盲要 禮讓一點,誰 知他們的走籃 ,投籃,等等 都非常好… 打了一陣子已 經頂不住, 要休息了… 加上穿的鞋子 在濕滑不平的 地面上很難活 動自如(還摔 了一交!) ,最後真的要退下火線… 一生人等一次 跟視力有障礙 的孩子打球, 認真意外…
這一天, 我才真的到了盲校。
晚飯:這一天 ,好像是到了 附近的川菜館作“亡命挑戰 "。有很多新 奇的食物,例 如有豆豉令魚 味道的招牌肉 排,有芝士 蝦片味的…什麼豆腐…還有超 勁辣的兔腿! 有點受
不了, 來一杯冰水, 發現是熱水加冰…差點沒有暈倒…
12 月 22 日
繼續是陰天。 開始懷疑在重 慶有陽光灿烂的日子嗎?
Street Fair 就在今天。在 步行街上早已搭起棚架和舞 台。在這個平日像旺角朗豪 坊附近一帶的
步行街,到處 都是人,店 舖,廣告,流 行音樂…還有 一股地下污水轉出來的惡臭 。我們以很多用氣球做成的 動物,花朵, 帽子作招徠, 吸引了很多好 奇的群眾…當 然最重要的是 學生和老師們 的表演。有點 像旁觀者的我 ,實在覺得他們在提高公眾對盲人教育的關注實在 可算“交足功 課"。這才發 現自己一直以 來,無論在香 港,美國,社關的意識都薄弱, 看箸那一大堆的圍觀者, 曾幾何時自己又何嘗不是 其中的一個?
這個社會真的有很多聲音 ,紛亂煩離 。當天也不例外,在同學,老師獻唱時,隨時 可以聽到流行曲,
廣告歌,叫賣聲 ,大銀幕節 目的聲音… 在舞台後面也是廣告招牌 ,林林種種的 商品。在這 樣的環境下 ,他們的聲 音,他們的 訴求,會被 注意到嗎?
廣告歌,叫賣聲 ,大銀幕節 目的聲音… 在舞台後面也是廣告招牌 ,林林種種的 商品。在這 樣的環境下 ,他們的聲 音,他們的 訴求,會被 注意到嗎?當天RM唱的 是"小白花"。意想不到的是我們用的吉 他是同學P借 給我們的。他本來希望借給 我們一個更好 ,更貴的吉他 ,聽主任說是價值幾百塊的 。但一來自己不敢用(一位老師 的薪水也不過是一 千塊) ,二來要自己 穿弦(有一根斷掉了)... 但我很驚訝他 的慷慨…記得自己有時也不願意將最好的借給別人…當我們在想怎樣 以愛感染他們 時,其實他們 正悄悄地把上帝的形像一 點點的帶給我們… 正如一首詩歌“In the image of God" 的內容提到 "in the image of God, we were made long ago ..." 我深信我們 的生命裡面 ,無論是信 與不信,或 多或小都 可以看見祂 的形象…
還有很多關於 P同學的故事 …
論盡事件: 在台上排位 時,差錯腳 ,踏在有carpet, 但沒有棚架 的地方, 感謝神, my feet landed on some metal framworks and it didn't hurt at all, just a little bruise near my knee。
Street fair 後, 老師請客。當 然是用重慶美 食-麻辣火鍋 款待我們… 引像中我好像沒有吃飽 …只
記得菜 內包是最好 吃… 下午是自由 時間 ,幾位弟兄姊 妹到了“磁器 口"-據說 當地保留了 清代時期的 建築,格局 …亡命的士 帶我們到了入 口。老實說 ,除了一大 群人以外, 實在看不到 有什麼特別 。進入峽窄的 街道,兩旁全是賣食, 精品,手信 ,書畫等東 西的店舖。 整個行程中 只記得三個 畫面: (1) 人山人海 (2) 在清代的建築 上所掛的臘肉 (3) 一家叫作“ 賣男孩的火 柴"店子。 其實大部份人 的焦點,已經 在"張飛牛肉 ",“烤羊肉 串",和手工 藝品上,至 於磁器口的 歷史價值, 早 已在頻繁的人民幣交易中 ,被無聲無息地埋葬起來…
記得菜 內包是最好 吃… 下午是自由 時間 ,幾位弟兄姊 妹到了“磁器 口"-據說 當地保留了 清代時期的 建築,格局 …亡命的士 帶我們到了入 口。老實說 ,除了一大 群人以外, 實在看不到 有什麼特別 。進入峽窄的 街道,兩旁全是賣食, 精品,手信 ,書畫等東 西的店舖。 整個行程中 只記得三個 畫面: (1) 人山人海 (2) 在清代的建築 上所掛的臘肉 (3) 一家叫作“ 賣男孩的火 柴"店子。 其實大部份人 的焦點,已經 在"張飛牛肉 ",“烤羊肉 串",和手工 藝品上,至 於磁器口的 歷史價值, 早 已在頻繁的人民幣交易中 ,被無聲無息地埋葬起來…
在“米路咖 啡"吃晚飯 時,已是七 、八點了。 這裡原來跟 酒店和盲校都很接近。 最特別的地方是在西式咖啡 店裡可以點 非常中式的 菜。 所以我點了煲仔飯。享受箸熱騰騰 的乳鴿煲仔飯(是我在重慶唯一 懷念的食物), 看箸窗外的燈 紅酒綠,突 然覺得這裡 和盲校,實在相距太遠 了…
12 月23日 下雨了 。
早上到了 CDC (Center for disabled children) ,參加了他們 的聖誕 聯歡。 沒有什麼特別。 只記得中午 到了 McDonald 食午飯。 第一次品嘗中國麥記的 風味,果然 不錯。 很懷念雞腿漢堡…
下午到了長 江三峽博物 館。很感謝 主隨行的一 班弟兄姊妹都很“玩得 ", otherwise it would be an awfully boring visit ...
這天晚上到 了一“秘密 地點" worship and debrief。 吃過晚飯後 身体頓感不息。以後的48 小時 所發生的,真是“ 人心也未曾想 到”...
我病倒了! 回酒店後, 發現頭暈身熱,吃點止 痛藥後心想 應無大礙, 所以趕快休息…
夜半, 腹痛,急瀉。 直到天明, 還在“大處理”中。實在沒辦法,
今天不能參加盲校聖誕party ... 心裡很失望。 在最希望參與的一天 ,卻要與馬桶為 伴。本來已 經非常昏暗 的天空,現 在連雲彩也 變色了。心 想下午能到 盲校嗎? 結果睡了、 瀉了一整天 ,真的已經倒空一切… 室友問到是否需要送院 ?心裡突然慌起來, 從來沒有住 院經驗…會是怎樣呢? 聽說中國的醫 院是敬錢,後治人,還有假 藥…不知睡了多 久,吃了多少藥,只知到晚上時份已經好了不 小。實在要 感謝君姨和Peter 的禱告,他們的藥…還有那位"信實的上帝" !
今天不能參加盲校聖誕party ... 心裡很失望。 在最希望參與的一天 ,卻要與馬桶為 伴。本來已 經非常昏暗 的天空,現 在連雲彩也 變色了。心 想下午能到 盲校嗎? 結果睡了、 瀉了一整天 ,真的已經倒空一切… 室友問到是否需要送院 ?心裡突然慌起來, 從來沒有住 院經驗…會是怎樣呢? 聽說中國的醫 院是敬錢,後治人,還有假 藥…不知睡了多 久,吃了多少藥,只知到晚上時份已經好了不 小。實在要 感謝君姨和Peter 的禱告,他們的藥…還有那位"信實的上帝" !讚美之泉台語敬拜專輯
我的心安靜在祢面前,我的靈等侯聴祢聲音. x2
我的牧者,我心所疼,放下自己 讓祢引導.
祢是信實的上帝,祢是永活的磐石,
有祢引導,我攏總免驚.祢的手輕輕牽我,
祢永遠不放棄我,用我一生, 讓祢的旨意成就
我的牧者,我心所疼,放下自己 讓祢引導.
祢是信實的上帝,祢是永活的磐石,
有祢引導,我攏總免驚.祢的手輕輕牽我,
祢永遠不放棄我,用我一生, 讓祢的旨意成就
12 月 25 日
繼續陰天。 聖旦節我們沒有" 休假"。下午 終於感到有“能力 "回到盲校。 實在感謝社會科的同工們, 她們都大致想 好了上課的材 料和彩虹茶市 的活動。在她們身上真的學 到很多東西。 尤其是 看到她們的關懷和愛心是主 動,具創意, 不計較付出的 。她們對孩子 真的"有一手" 。 這天沒有做什 麼,下午還是 回酒店休息了 一回…因為晚 上被邀請參加學生們自辦的 “真情互動" !
大考嚴 !!
這個節目是直 播到全校,所有當值老師, 同學們都會聽 到我們的聲音 ,我們的回答 …還有我們普 通話有限公司出品的普通話 。主持節目的是學生會主席 ,而參與的老 師共有五 位。整個過程 主持都做得十 分體面,也讓 我們有很多說話的機會。在 事前沒有任何 準備的情況下 ,其實是有點 難度的。例如 我們能記下的學生名字… 在十個字以內 ,對同學們有 一些鼓勵說話…
從一個狹小的直播室開始,心靈的互動越過牆壁, 穿過窗戶, 透過寒冷的空氣, 播送溫馨的盼望, 一切---從心開始。
12 月26 日 陰。
已經習慣了陰天。 早操也開始熟稔了。 從盲校到酒店 的路,已經走 過很多遍…老 師的面孔,同學的聲音…突然覺得這裡好像不再陌生…
下午, 心裡正在為買 什麼禮物給學 生煩惱…這也 是考驗自己對 學們有多認識 … 苦惱之際,有一位很可 愛的小女孩, initial is f.s. 來到 mtg room, 交 低了一份小 禮物, 原來是送給我 的。 在灰黃的凸字紙上 ,是一個用十多隻紙鶴砌成 的“愛" 字。 昨天她造了一 份送給另一位 老師的時候, 我很欣賞她的 作品,很配服 她的手藝…原來她還記得那些說話,所以今天特地做了一份… 雖然這不算什 麼很特別貴重 的禮物,但卻給我留下很深 的印象… 後來發現在重慶帶回來的東西 ,就只有這些 禮物還是好好保留箸…
不是神先愛我們嗎?
後來她設計了 一個很精致 的“活動式 "相架,非 常別緻,差 點要為她申請版權 ...
最後我送出的禮物,除了是 買回來很精緻 的字夾外,還有用凸字機打在小卡上的祝福字句…
12 月 27 日
一樣的天氣。 最後一天社會課, 同學跟老師們 都很不捨得。 他們送給了我 們很多他們對 愛的看法,對 彩虹老師的很多祝福 …很唯撼的是 沒有 跟他們社會科 的老師多聊 幾句,也忘 了邀請他吃 飯…
下午把握機會 到再到電腦課 親身參與。 今天講的是小狗的故事, 非常有趣。同 學們需要從 internet 上找資料,然 後組合成一個 故事…
明天很多同學 都要走了,晚 飯 前我們都在 跟他們道別。 雖然真的只有 幾天相處的時間, 跟同學 們不 算太相熟 ,但他的熱情和那份不 吝嗇的流露實在很令人感 動…相擁過後 ,他們問我還 回來嗎,會寫信給他們嗎? 會寄相給他們 嗎?…那一刻 ,真的想哭, 我沒有給他們回答,只是緊緊的抱箸他 們…
晚上約了一班 intern 老師吃飯。在 路上跟一位老 師聊天,談到他的故鄉,他的成長,他的故事。話語之 間,感到有點悲涼,發覺他 的心情可能 跟這裡的天 氣一樣,有點 憂悶。 可惜路途太短 未能分享自己 的信仰。但神 也為他預備, 在吃飯的時候 他跟另一位弟 兄談到他的傷痛處,並且一起祈禱。真 的希望現在 的他 能夠遇見有位能使一切 都更新的耶 穌 。
這天晚上神也很恩待同學們 ,就在我們跟老師吃飯時, 在盲校裡另一 些老師也在 跟同學們吃飯。 P同學也在這 天晚上接受了 耶穌成為他的救主。 尤於我們 are not supposed to spread any good news among the students (under 18), 所以一切消息 都比較“保密 "。But to me it is really amazing to see how God works among us, have the teachers eat with us so other teachers can talk to the students. And student P prayed (his first prayer!!) that the female teachers will have safety on their way home (because it was late at night then). At the same time we finished dinner and some brothers decided to go back to 盲校. So the brothers escorted the sisters back to hotels ... everything is "In His Time".
12 月28日
最後和學生們相處的一天! 有一些同在下 午時侯便要回 家,下午也沒有課了。早上到了音樂課, 今天教的是 分辦大,中, 小音…老實說 ,自己也從未 學過 ,對一些technical terms, 更是摸不著頭 腦。 當中有幾位( 相信是全盲) 學生是完全 behind the class ,只見他們糊 亂地抓,搖 動身體(那是 一個聽音量, 扮樹搖的活 動)…好奇 的我走到他 們那裡,“ 指點迷津" ,發現他們原來 聽不懂老師 的國語!這位 彩虹老師是百份百的香港人…
回到會議室, 發現已經有很多同學在那裡 , 大部份是來珍惜最後“相聚一 刻"的機會。f.s. ,莎老師, L弟兄和 一些同學,最後和我們唱了一首手語歌“感恩的心" -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmxNPPwvwd0
我来自偶然，象一颗尘土
有谁看出我的脆落
我来自何方，我情归何处
谁在下一刻呼唤我
天地虽宽，这条路却难走
我看遍这人间坎坷辛苦
我还有多少爱，我还有多少泪
要苍天知道，我不认输
感恩的心，感谢有你
伴我一生，让我有勇气做我自己
感恩的心，感谢命运
花开花落，我一样会珍惜
故事很美, 多少也透露 了一點殘障 人士的心路歷程 。心裡有一個 感動,希望有 一天潛存在中國人心裡對命,天,運 的無奈或興幸,能被一個無量,無限制,無條件的愛所取代 ,讓感恩的心 ,成為每一個 中國人生命裡的瑰寶。
這一天,看箸盲校鐵柵慢慢的關上,心裡突然覺得有點酸, 想到我們又要各自走各的路了… 兩個世界的人 ,又要回到自己的世界裡…想到一年後他們會怎樣呢?我又會再有機會回來嗎?一些可愛的臉孔, 可能真的只有在相片中再遇,一些感動的時刻,也只能在回憶中細味。孩子們雖然很髒,很臭,樣子不美( 他們的可愛, 不在乎外在), 但他們很真惜一切 ,“花開花落,我一樣會珍惜" ,以心交心, 我所看到的,是真誠,單純 ,彼此相助 ,面對真實的美麗。沒有物質的豐盛,也沒有前途的保證,但他們對每一份關懷的重視,對每一個相遇的珍惜, 讓他們比看得見的人,笑得更燦爛 。
最後的這一天,收到了一份小禮物 ,裡面夾箸 了一些簡單的字句…
" …老師,你們要走了, 我們一點也不開心…我會想念你們 …" - 那一刻,我說不出話來…
在我的印象中 ,L姊妹是不會哭的。但這一天 ... ... 認識她的這幾年中,真的第一次看到眼紅紅的她 。其實很欣賞她的認真和投入。從她的外套, 已經可見一"斑。經過這兩週,髒的程度 ,可能不比學生們的遜色…
最後看了盲校一眼 …願主親自祝福他們,醫治這地,讓瞎眼的能看見, 在黑暗中的能見光…
在我的印象中 ,L姊妹是不會哭的。但這一天 ... ... 認識她的這幾年中,真的第一次看到眼紅紅的她 。其實很欣賞她的認真和投入。從她的外套, 已經可見一"斑。經過這兩週,髒的程度 ,可能不比學生們的遜色…
最後看了盲校一眼 …願主親自祝福他們,醫治這地,讓瞎眼的能看見, 在黑暗中的能見光…
後來的兩天 ,是一些跟老師們觀光的時間,印象不太深… 倘若以後有機會想起來再寫吧…
Saturday, January 12, 2008
又如何?
轉瞬間回來西雅圖快兩週了,一 切都沒有多大的 改變 ,還是熟識的環境 ,陌生的地方。 在這清冷的 角落生活, 時間好像凝固了一樣, 有點覺得在重慶和香港的幾個禮拜是一個夢。一個星球竟然有兩個如此不同的地方和人事。 在整理短宣分享的過程中, 發現很多幾乎遺忘了的片段, 原來對自己 有很大的意義。也可能是這原固,分享的文章老是不能結尾… 還有相片的整理 …我想這是一個大項目…
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